My family's making me suicidal, but I'm stuck here. What to do with my life, I need advice desperately?
I know this is long, but I'm very desperate for help, and I don't have any friends to go to with my problems... - Im 20 and live at home with my family while Im job searching. I had to leave college, because I couldnt afford it any longer (Im absolutely broke and cant pay for it & no fin. aid is available except taking out large loans) - While living at home, Im having tons of family problems with my mom. To the point where she's tried smacking me around, because I think she sees what she wants to see. She flipped out at me when i was looking in our freezer for my frozen meal & random prepackaged food she over-stuffed in our freezer fell out & i couldnt catch it, so she thinks I'm 'throwing' food around intentionally. I dont how she can come up with something so preposterous & how that would even make sense in her mind. :S - My brother is just as hateful as my mom and says hurtful things like "no one likes you" whenever I come out of my room to grab a drink or if I walk by him. He bullies me like this almost daily. - The hatred and negativity from living here got so bad that I emailed the only 2 people who I know for a temporary place to stay so that I can get away. Although neither replied back so Im literally stuck here, broke, and job searching with no results. I want to work desperately so I can move out. - Im stressed out and cant fall asleep at night for the last 2 weeks. Im crying almost every night and cant control how hopeless I feel about my future. - Also, Im starving and lost 7 lbs in 2 weeks. My mom stopped buying food for me (Ive been a vegetarian for 10 years) when she grocery shops for my family. Its like i dont even exist and she spends my dads money on food for everyone but me. - The only positive in my life is my *one* real friend from Canada, who said he can help me and I can stay with him while I get my life straightened out. But moving to Canada is impossible, Im in the US and the paperwork + the fees + the time to process the paperwork makes it so that I cant even see my only friend when I really need to. - Im thinking of seriously joining the military because its the only way I'll be able to get away from my toxic 'family,' get some food, and a FT place to work... - Ive been depressed for years, but never this severely depressed... I feel like Ive lost everything, my hearts been ripped out, Im crippled emotionally and mentally, and I have no way out of this situation. I want to become a nurse, but I cant pay for it on a minimum wage job and I CAN NOT still live here for 2-3 more years while taking nursing classes. I honestly feel like without a nursing degree, I have no future because Im shy and that kills my chances of getting most jobs. What can I do? Take the plunge and join the military? I have no friends to stay with, I cant find a FT job to pay rent. Im broke and cant move to Canada. I cant stay here any longer because it's crippling me and tearing me down day by day.
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Your family isn't doing anything to you ... you're doing it to yourself. You choose to remain at home, for whatever reasons or rationalization you choose to use and you choose to let what they say and do bother you ... you could just as easily laugh in their faces rather than react as you current choose to. Sure, join the military ... sounds like a plan.
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Wow.. relax..i've been there. but in a very different situation. I think you know suicide is not the answer! Have you ever talked to God ? You could start by accepting him as your savior. and by asking him to take over your life! I did. it's sad to say allot of us do this when we just can't find a way out! But sometimes that's what it takes. I did and let me tell you, from felling worthless and hopeless and thinking of suicide, Jesus Christ has filled me with peace and i know now that if i ever have a problem, i can get on my knees or go worship him and rais my hand up and by faith it's just so cool ... he answers my prayers! He inlights me gives me undertanding and knowlege to handle whatever situation! but you have to beleive, I encourage you to read the Bible an just look up " HOW TO ACCEPT JESUS CHRIST AS YOUR SAVIOR
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Either get the student loans or join the military. Your family isn't going to change. And you don't have to pay the loans back until you quit going to school. Technically you could take one class for the rest of your life and never pay them back.
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